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Hey, have you been defeated yet?

Journal Entry: Fri May 2, 2008, 8:02 PM
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Kusabi
  • Watching: One Missed call
  • Playing: Soul Caliber 2, Castlevania,FFXII
  • Eating: Fortune cookies
  • Drinking: Protein Water/Grape&Cerry Juice
How easy it would be to snap his neck, to watch him bleed, to make him hurt; how simple it would be to paint the world red with the tips of my fingers and yet I know I wouldn't-couldn't-do it. I want to rip that damn smile off his fucking face, I wanted him to see, to understand that what he was doing was wrong. I wanted to world to see it-all those eyes to scorn him, to shhun him, to hate him because for so long they stared upon her-on me. People are so disgusting nowadays; they are consumed with their lust for attention, for their transient moment in the lime light; they are corrupted by their greed to obtain petty objects that are not needed; they are weighed down by the thought of belong, for having connections with the higher authorities; they wear themselves away until there is nothign left, nothing but a vague collection of reflections cast upon a hideous expression called a face.

I hated them for what they were doing-for what they would do to her, for the sorrow and injustice of it. They would destroy her, corrupt, taint her with their grubby, filthy little hands. Why should they have that pleasure, that satisfaction of ruining a perfectly good person, a potental sould accumalating a purpose? I wanted to hide her away, to beat the world, to hiss, to scream and kick and cry and plead. For the first time in my life I understood Dominique. I understood why she wanted to destroy Roark, why she broke that statue she loved, why she did the things that she did; I don't want the world to see how lovely she really is-don't want them to take what little sweet-ness is left within her heart away. I wanted to lock her away, to send her to some far away place where no one would every find her. She doesn't deserve it-what's happening...she's too pristine for their filthy hands of lust and manipulations.

I'm tired, but then again I'm always tired nowadays. I want to sleep for a while...sleep until the world isn't what it is. I'm sick. I'm choking. I'm useless and worthless and hideous because I've become tainted like them, like all those eyes that I shy away from. The red lines upon my eyelids are here to stay just as the lines of my eyelids continue to deepen.

I wanted to be number one; wanted to feel that pride in succeeded everyone's expectations. But slowly that illusion is beginning to break. I should've been more careful, but I wanted to much to obtain that letter, to show everyone that I was smart, that I could do it. I don't know if I can now. Maybe I will come through. I think I made her jealous, made her angry that I got higher scores than her, made her come to hate me just a bit. I don't understand why though-if you wanted to be number one then take it because I only wanted it to prove myself more than anyone else, now, that I could do it, that I could make it.

I don't want sympathy or empathy; I don't want to hear, "I hope you'll be okay" or whatever it is that will be said. I will be fine-always am. Just putting down my thoughts.

A single step begins the journey....a single step.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 17
  • Interests: Drawing, writing, playing the piano, and learning Japanese
  • Favourite movie: The Grudge
  • Favourite band or musician: Kotoko, Kawabe Chieco, Hyde, Miyamoto Shunichi, Ishida Yoko.
  • Favourite genre of music: Mixture of all types, but mostly pop.
  • Favourite artist: Thomas Kinkade
  • Favourite poet or writer: Amelia Water-Rhodes, J.K. Rowling
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod
  • Favourite game: Kingdom Hearts, Final FantasyXII
  • Favourite cartoon character: Stitch
  • Personal Quote: I draw because I want others to see the world through my eyes.

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Devious Comments

~MinnaE:iconMinnaE: Apr 8, 2008, 1:12:41 PM
Thanks for the fav :D
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Mar 23, 2008, 4:35:11 PM
No prob.^^

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~NagareboshiMarie:iconNagareboshiMarie: Mar 19, 2008, 5:48:09 PM Mood: Happy
thanks for the :+fav:. Makes me feel loverly :blowkiss:!

~NM:rose:

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Everyone has a responsibility to not only tolerate another person's point of view, but also to accept it eagerly as a challenge to your own understanding. And express those challenges in terms of serving other people. -Arlo Guthrie
~Draconis22:iconDraconis22: Mar 19, 2008, 11:24:00 AM
*dingding* RULES:
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Send to 10 of your friends to show them how much luv u have for them. If u get this back it means u r luved 2x as much!!

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"There’s something…strange about the way you two are together… The way he watches you - it's so... protective. Like he’s about to throw himself in front of a bullet to save you or something."
~gunnm-lithium:icongunnm-lithium: Mar 11, 2008, 11:04:10 AM
not problem ^^

me mh, i'm fine, i think...

see ya :blowkiss:

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~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Mar 6, 2008, 4:17:54 PM
I'm so sorry for not replying earlier; I'm been so busy with school work that I haven't been online as of late. I'm okay, I guess; been feeling a little sickish, but its nothing serious. How have you been?

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~gunnm-lithium:icongunnm-lithium: Mar 1, 2008, 3:41:18 PM
Hello sweetie how are you ???

:heart:


ps: sorry i wasn't on these last time :worry:

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[ j£ n£ suis...qu£ l'Ombr£ d'un£ vi£... ]


:damphyr: AnOth£r Part Of m£ ... [link]
~Draconis22:iconDraconis22: Feb 27, 2008, 8:24:40 AM
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"There’s something…strange about the way you two are together… The way he watches you - it's so... protective. Like he’s about to throw himself in front of a bullet to save you or something."
=mitchellnelson:iconmitchellnelson: Feb 19, 2008, 4:41:46 AM
:D

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~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Feb 18, 2008, 5:34:49 PM
Welcomes.

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Feb 18, 2008, 5:34:37 PM
Your welcome.

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Feb 18, 2008, 5:34:22 PM
No problem.

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
=mitchellnelson:iconmitchellnelson: Feb 18, 2008, 2:59:19 AM
thanks for faving [link] Shadowy Beauty!!!

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Plz post you comments on my art in My Gallery

*obeyyourmaster:iconobeyyourmaster: Feb 17, 2008, 1:39:13 PM
Thanks for the fav!!!

:)

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Don't let my name fool you. I'm not actually an evil warlord that wants you to obey me. I'm actually a corrupt Politician. :XD:

If you are taking me too seriously, take these pills. They will make you feel better.
*kawaiimon:iconkawaiimon: Feb 16, 2008, 7:49:16 PM
Thanks for the fave! :D
~Umarekawari:iconUmarekawari: Feb 10, 2008, 5:24:07 PM
Thanks for the fav chick! ^.~

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"When you understand complete darkness, you can see true light; the light that heals all within the void-I chose that path. My sanctuary. "
- Rebirth
~Draconis22:iconDraconis22: Feb 2, 2008, 8:20:04 AM
np...^.^

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"There’s something…strange about the way you two are together… The way he watches you - it's so... protective. Like he’s about to throw himself in front of a bullet to save you or something."
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Feb 2, 2008, 8:00:26 AM
And thank you for adding me to your friend list. ^^

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~Draconis22:iconDraconis22: Jan 25, 2008, 3:10:15 AM
:+devwatch: :giggle:

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"There’s something…strange about the way you two are together… The way he watches you - it's so... protective. Like he’s about to throw himself in front of a bullet to save you or something."
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Jan 18, 2008, 6:12:44 PM
Your welcome. ^.^

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Jan 18, 2008, 6:12:32 PM
No problem.

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
~Draconis22:iconDraconis22: Jan 14, 2008, 6:14:43 PM
thx for the watch...:hug:

do you really learn japanese? By yourself or with professional lead :?
~ShawnMG7:iconShawnMG7: Dec 31, 2007, 6:01:35 PM
Thanks for the fave!!!
~Kurisiti:iconKurisiti: Dec 13, 2007, 4:44:13 PM
No problem.

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"There is nothing sadder than a child
who has barely seen the world,
yet who has seen enough of it to know
that he does not wish to be a part of it..." -Anonymous
*Gianlu:iconGianlu: Dec 13, 2007, 4:40:10 PM
thanks for the fav :D